John Adams’s Quarter-Life Crisis

To what Object, are my Views directed? What is the End and Purpose of my Studies, Journeys, Labours of all Kinds of Body and Mind, of Tongue and Pen? Am I grasping at Money, or Scheming for Power? Am I planning the Illustration of my Family or the Welfare of my Country? These are great Questions.
In Truth, I am tossed about so much, from Post to Pillar, that I have not Leisure and Tranquility enough, to consider distinctly my own Views, Objects and Feelings.—-I am mostly intent at present, upon collecting a Library, and I find, that a great deal of Thought, and Care, as well as Money, are necessary to assemble an ample and well-chosen Assortment of Books.

—-Diary of John Adams, January 30, 1768.